my family

So over the last week my whole world has changed. For those of you that saw me and for those of you that have me on the snap know. But for those who don't i joined the baddest Fraternity on campus, Omega Nu Omega Co-ed Fraternity(ΩNΩ). I'm so excited to be apart of greek life and to be part of a life long family. I never thought the day would come but i did it and i'm proud to were those letter because i earned them. What i am most looking forward to is putting in my ideas and helping this organization grow, i'm determined to make sure that this frat doesn’t die again because for a while we left campus but we are back now. It's crazy because i have been on this campus for almost a year now and now i'm seeing a whole new aspect of the campus because you really can't tell from the outside looking in how different greek life is from others but once you get in it's like join a bigger community. But after this is all said and done i'm just happy and blessed to call this organization an extension of my family a second home, these are people that i know that at the end of the day they are going to ride for me like i would ride for them. That's my story but what do i know i'm just a kid…… nah i know because i'm a man that for the first time in a long time can see clear. Shout out to frat i love yall.  

the revealing

What good guys you all know what time it is, but for those of you who don't it's time to talk about some of my distorted views. So over the last week i have been thinking, i've been thinking about the things that i have gone through in this last semester, but more importantly what i learned from it. And this is what i came up with. The first thing i learned is can't is not in my vocabulary, there is no i can’t if i want something i have to work hard to earn it, No short cuts. As well as perseveres. You have to be willing to put in those long hours, miss some sleep for you to be successful. I watch a video a couple of days back that really got me thinking. There was a quote in the movie that hit me hard it said “ when you want to succeed as bad as you want to breath that is when you will be successful.” meaning that cant just want it you gotta be willing to hell and back for it, you have to be willing to sacrifice it all. I learned the meaning of Hard Work and Dedication. Life is not a breeze it will knock you down and keep knocking you down  till you give in but you have to keep pushing, no matter hard it get. One of the last things i learned more about over this last semester is the power of family. When i was feeling like i was at my lowest of low my  fam was there. When i needed guidance they were there, no matter what they were always there even when i didn’t want them there, Always pushing me and holding me accountable for my actions. Now some of you may know where i learned all of this and some of you may no,t but that is for me to know and for you to find out. So keep your eyes and ears open this week and you may find out.

Its coming to an end

So it's about that time the year is coming to a close, class are getting ready for finals, and people are making plans for what they are going to to do over the summer. Some will be going home others, going on adventures, but me i'm going to be here in hot ass turlock working. I have been trying to apply to jobs for the summer. Basically my plan is to spend my summer working. I wanted to go home at first but i still need to pay my rent and bills so i need money to pay them. I will most likely go home for like a week or two but other then that i plan on working.  Other than that summer will be just me sitting around the house, chilling with the friends that are here, and just doin me. It’s crazy to think that our first year is really about to come to an end. It seems like it went by so fast. Like where did the time go, it felt like just a couple months back i was just moving into my place and trying to get to know the area. Now as i look forward i'm  excited to see what these next few years have in store for me, because over the last past school year i have experienced and learned a lot.  But that is a blog for a different day. But this is just the views of a man with some distorted views that are starting to get a little more clear

my munchie list

So here we are back again, still a little rusty but here we go this week i'm hitting yall with my top 5 foods on campus i like. The first is the burritos, most of the time i get the chicken burrito with spanish rice, black beans, and salsa. I get that when i want some protein. The second is pasta. Everybody likes pasta and usually when i do  get it, i get  the bowtie pasta with chicken, spinach, mushrooms, and anything else looks good at the time. 3 the chicken tenders from the grill. The tenders were one of the first things that i had when i got here and to me they were really good. The only thing i can say I don't like is that they make you pay for more ranch now. Like yall know that i just got 6 tenders and you are just going to give me one ranch, like why are you playing with me. 4 the chicken grilled sandwich, now the sandwich is pretty damn good on it own but then when you put bbq sauce and some fires on the inside with it, man its flames. Tbh i might go get me one of those right now. But i think my all time favorite thing to get from here is the smokehouse burger. A patty with lettuce,tomato, cheese, bbq sauce, and fresh onion ring. Fire as hell that is the one thing that i will not get tired of. So the next time you guys what something for lunch but you don't know what to get just remember yall boiis list.

The Return of the skinny black kid

I’ve been gone for a while but i'm back now and I got some things to talk about. So if you are weak at heart then leave now. You have been warned. But anyway today we are going to talk my 5 reasons why i have been ghost lately. So my first reason is because i'm tired of trying to please everybody. It seems like everybody is asking for an arm and a leg and I just don’t have it to give. I started off at the beginning of the first semester trying to please everybody and i found that I was getting the shit end of the stick on more than one occasion. Which brings me to my second reason, i'm tired of everybody treating me like i'm less. And by this i mean me giving my respect to people and then treating me and talking to me like i am stupid or benthen them. I worked just as hard or even harder to get where i am at now, and i be damned if i'm going to let anybody treat me crazy. My third reason is because I’m putting myself first. Seens i got here I have been trying to make everybody happy even if it means putting myself on the back burner, and I don’t like that when i try to ask for something everybody act like they can't help me. so i’m just going to just fall back. My fourth reason is i just don’t want drama in my life, i’m at a point where i'm just trying to do me and i don't have space in my life for people that are going to bring bad vibes and drama in my life. And finally I’m just taking some time for myself. I feel like everybody just needs some time to themselves. But shit what do i know im just a skinny dude with some distorted views.

Is the music still for me?

So this week we are going to take about music. More importantly how i'm thinking about changing my major. So over this past year i have been trying out being a music major and in some aspects i liked being a music major but i've noticed that i am not enjoying it as much as i thought I would. I have noticed that there is a drive that I see in the other music majors that i just don't have. The drive to just lock myself in a practice room for hours on end and give all of my time to it. Don't get me wrong i still love music and if i do switch my major i would still be in the department but i just wouldn’t be a music major anymore. I would still take jazz combo because i really enjoy jazz, I thought that i would like it but seens i have started i enjoy that class more than my other music classes that i am taking. So my plan of actions is going to be i'm going to wait out the rest of this semester, and when next semester comes around i will go undeclared and work on my GE classes as well as start looking into some potential majors that i would enjoy and go from there, but in a nutshell that is what i am battling with. Whatever I end up doing i'm going to take it one day at a time that's all i can do.

time is my struggle

So this week i'm going to talk about something that I have been struggling with is my time management. Now from the jump I have never been good at managing my time. I do a ok job but lately because of my poor time managing over this last month I have started to fall behind in my classes as well as i've been stressed because i feel like i don't have time to do anything because everything is piling up.  So I recently invested in a weekly planner that i plan on using to get myself back on track with some help of my friends.  This is going to be hard because i'm not use to living by a pre set schedule, usually I don't plan things i just go with the follow, but i can't do that anymore. So with the help of my friends i'm going to start this new life of working on a schedule. I feel like it's going to be hard but i will adapt. This will only help me.if there is anyone that can give me tips or advice to help me out out that would be great. Any way if i can pass on any words of wisdom i would say time management is key if you dont get it college is going to be long and hard.

spring break

So we are back from spring break. I'm pretty sure that everyone went home, visited with their family, parties ,etc… me a lot of my spring break was spent at my house chillin. And if i wasn't there then i was in the gym, and I am feeling good. Since i started going to the gym I feel like i have more energy as well as it is getting easier to wake up in  the morning. Other than that i sat around the house and binge watched avatar the last airbender and the matrix series. I tried out some new recipes that i got from my mom as well but it wasn't as good as hers, but  we working on it. But i was a little sad that i couldn’t go home, originally my plan was to go back home for san diego for the week but my plans fell through so i ended up staying here which really wasn't to bad even tho i was really looking forward to going home because i wanted to be there for my uncles birthday but its ok theres always summer. Other than that my spring break was cool i felt dumb short though, but that just means it's time to get back to grinding. I hope everybody had a great break and i wish everyone lucky as we start this week.

tech life

So for the last week in my music tech class we have started working on a new project. we are tune the vocals of a former stan state student who made a cover of blank space by taylor swift. To tune the voice we are using this plug-in called waves tune. And at first it was very confusing because i didn't really understand how to use it the right way but after working with it for the last couple of days I have started to understand how to insert this into my work flow. Waves tune is a real power plug -in through working with this we have barely stretch the sruf of how much you can do with just that one plug-in. For example in some parts of the song her pitch was off and in other cases that is something that would have to be fixed during the recording processes we can now fix in the editing stage. Other than that we have  been going through the same process that we went through for the last two projects. Overall i am honestly tired of listening that song i will be happy when we move on to the next project. Even though i noticed that when i focus in on a part of the project i tend to zone out and focus in on that one part and that makes it bearable. I am looking forward to learning more about pro tools. But that has been my week.

my old habits

So this week was a pretty good week.but there is still this one problem that i deal with to this day. And that problem my friends is my procrastinations.procrastination is a disease that plagues me still to this day. Last semester i never did anything until the last minute and that really didn't help me at all. So i decided that this semester i would try harder not to procrastinate, but somehow i am still doing it. Old habits die very hard. But this one will die. For example last semester i would wait until the last minute to do my work and even though i feel like i still did pretty well for ot being my first semester  i felt like i could have done better. And that is why coming into this second semester i planned on being more organized with my work flow and how i get things done but not much has changed. I feel myself falling back into my old habits. My goal is to break that old habit and try to stay on top of my work and for the most part i feel like this is doable because of the people that i have put myself around. I have put myself around some friends that are pushing me to do better, work harder. Other than that it's been a pretty cool week. Yo so if yall have a good idea that could help me with this i would love to hear it just leave it in the comment section below thanks.

No whip struggle

So today we are going to talk about something very very important, and that my friends is the fact that i don't have my license yet. Because of this i have been put in a situations where i have to skate or walk everywhere and that my friends is a problem. To be honest there is no one that i can blame for this but myself either. Back when is was in my junior year of highschool i was giving the opportunity to go through drivers ed classes and even pay for me to get it done but that the time i was not thinking about having a car or having a license. Instead i was thinking about the next time me and my bros where going to skate to downtown. I didn't see the need for me to have a car at that point because everyone around had one and that meant that i could just ride with them because 9 times out of 10 we were going somewhere together. But That all changed when i got down here and it wasn't me and my bros anymore. High School was over  and now i'm stuck walking or skating everywhere. I wish i would have listened and got my license while i was still in highschool because then getting around here would a lot easier. My plan is over the summer i'm getting a job and i'm going to get my license then after that i'm going to get a car so i won't have to skate to get around anymore, but i probably still will sometimes just because it's fun and a good way to get my workout for the day.

My next step

So over the last week a lot has happened, chillin with my friends, going to stanfest. But the biggest thing for me that has happened this last week is on sunday I finally started down the path of becoming a member of Omega Nu Omega fraternity(ONO). After going to most of the socials and getting to know some of the people there I have decided to try to  Pledge. So on sunday I had my interview, and for the most part i feel like it went pretty well. At first it was me and the two other brothers that are trying to get in with me sitting outside the room waiting for them to call us in one by one. Finally they came out i was the first to go in, I was really nervous because i didn't want to mess anything up, as well as the way the interview was set up. just me and i had all of them sitting in front of me asking questions, but after a while the questions lightened up a little and i was able to calm down. To be honest I don't even know why i was freaking out because most of the faces that were there were ones that i was use to seeing. After my interview was over i sat outside the room and waited for the other two to go through and then we went to the village cafe and got some food and pondered the questions that were asked and more importantly what will be the final judgement about how we did. At this point it is nothing but a waiting game, i hope things go well and if they do me and my two brothers will be on line together starting our next chapter in our  journey to joining the ONO family.

music

So far my first year at stan state has been pretty cool i have meet some some cool people and done some things. Main in the music department is where a lot of my time is spent, and where all of my joy and troubles lay. Because i am a music major i am required to take more units the the average student. On a typical semester i will be taking between 18 and 20 units. Now i'm not saying that that is a bad thing because i love music but i feel like sometimes i am over loading myself and I don't know if this is really the route that i want to take. But then i think about how much of love i have for playing music and being around like minded people who understand what i am going through. Like there is nothing more rewarding than working your ass off more a show then killing it and everyone loves it it makes all of the long hours worth it. Also since we are on the topic i have decided to join a jazz combo. I was nervous at first because i had never played jazz so i thought it was going to be tough and i would fail but now that i am doing it i'm having a lot of fun and i'm glad that i am doing it. But with all these classes I just how that i don’t over work myself and stress out because it’s going to kill me

the struggle of a new class

So as of this semester i had to switch into a later english class so I can make the space I needed  for my music tech class, and in first glance everything seemed as if it  was going to be the same but as the class started I began to notice that there are some big difference and some obstacles that I will have to face. For example something that I didn’t take into consideration is how much of a difference the dynamic is in the classes. Where I have grown a costume to class generally talking more than with this class where it seems like the standard is to kind of sit and be quiet. Personally I feel as if it harder for me to just sit and listen to a lecture when I could have a conversation. I have found that it makes the class go by faster and you get more out of the lesson. Or Maybe i’m just looking at it wrong ? But one thing that I feel is going to be the hardest for me to overcome with moving into this new class is adapting to the atmosphere of the class, will  the dead vibe break or will will it remain?  will I just conform to the standard? I don’t know yet it's still the first couple of weeks, I hope that with the semester goes on the vibe will change. But hell what do i know i'm just a skinny nigga with some tatts